Sometimes
I lose myself
in those little moments
Ignore myself
and those little thoughts
Hide myself
behind veiled smiles

Sometimes
I am ignored
and these thoughts multiply
and I try to deny
the truth that is always there
always has been
always will be
thoughts of despair, so unfair...
that I
will never be
important


But allthetimes




.......



I





cry




and I






sleep





through this life
in a hazy daze
muddled by my dangerous thoughts
that label me as ill,
and refusing to take that pill
that takes away all feeling
and all that makes me
alive

it's my secret
that I hide
from everybody
all the time